The walking me /\

A step closer ..

This entry is actually dated 25-09-07.

ohh god yesterday we won .. won b4 35000 big crowd and rest of the world watching.
We lifted the cup after an interesting deserving match between two biggest cricket loving nations.. we boosted our confidence by outdoing ourselves .. and yes we were so soo happy!!

The only thing that bothered me why drag in animosity between nations to celebration.Our win was our win .. why care who lost?Why give "murdabad" slogans?

Yesterday I was overwhelmed by these thoughts that kept creeping in my mind till late midnight .. Why do we hate other nation?
Why hate anyone at all?How come religion with it's primary goal to preach people to do their best morally bring about such major differences that we forget a lot many things,and stared torturing ourselves by hating?!Why do we start disrepcting someone for something they might not be and do something that we do not approve of being done to us?

But then today morning something happened that answered me that such thoughts come out of insecurity .. insecurity that someone is at favour because of some reason that I was deprived of because I was simply not born to have it.

Who initiates this viscious circle of insecurity and affinity for alikes?I who feels insecure or I who feels prouder when giving/expecting unearned affection for/to someone I can identify with more.

I know these worries will keep haunting me for long till I find answer to my questions .. but I know I am a step closer.

jai shri Ganesh .. my 1st blog entry

To all those who will want to read my blog let me help you by first introducing myself.People refer to me by the 6 lettered word "Chhaya" which means shadow and in Hindu mythology is the name of Sun god's second wife.

Now in case you want to know where I was born and what my childhood was like ,why I was such a talkative introvert at school and which were my most memorable moments in college all I can say is that I do have very different answers to your questions ,but they all are seemingly boring.So let's better skip all these details and for now it's enough if I tell you that I have grown to love music, appreciate words and like people.

Now before we lose track of the purpose of this blog entry let's get back to the topic.Yeah,
so I have at times wanted to write my mad maddening thoughts and give them to the world to
read and understand what it is like to be "me" but I never really got into action coz I never had enough passion to make time for this.

However coming to B'lore I realised that all of a sudden I have a lot of time on weekends.Before coming here in college I was part of a very interesting friend circle so I never really had enough time.We would go playing baddy,throw ball,Tennis , go out of campus,we would dance and sing, walk the campus roads loud and talk our wildest thoughts out and ofcourse on exam days study hard to escape failing.
But in B'lore I have no such mad maddening circle so for time being I am all set to do cooking,blogging,shopping and enjoy myself.

And yes if you too are killing extra time and have nothing better to do you are welcome to write comments .. [:)]